Can you keep a secret? It turns out that I can, but it is very hard for me to blog while I keep it. The music of our family has a new rhythm. We've been shaken out of our doldrums and are experiencing both new and old routines with a fresh perspective. For me, the Mama of the family, this has meant living more in the present and noticing how we live and interact with each other. Being more present has meant refocusing on our family's basic physical and emotional needs; cooking daily, sometimes three times a day, making other household chores a priority, and spending time together.
So, what's the secret? I can't tell you! Yet. Soon...I promise.
After living in the present for the last couple of months, it has become clear to me that I spend a lot of time living in the past. This is a good lesson for family historians and genealogists; don't forget...there is only now, this moment, in this life, to live and love and laugh.
Though even now, as I go through my days cutting vegetables, washing clothes, helping with homework, I can hear the whispers of my ancestors, like drifting smoke tendrils in my thoughts, nudging me back to my research. Their words quietly remind me, "don't forget about us."
I haven't forgotten and won't forget you. I'm just spending some time in this oasis of now, listening to a new rhythm, dancing to a new beat, before traveling back to the past again.
And, I've got a secret.